So I am to get some things off of my chest - reality really does bite. You see all these people young, too young, old, very old,
whatever getting knocked-up. Let me tell you, it's not easy. I don't know if being immature, on crack or irresponsible makes it easier to get pregnant, and trust me that I am NOT ready to try it. Amber and I want--and actually have no choice but to start trying--to have a family. We thought we were golden with her body reacting weirdly recently, but we were incorrect. I am excited to become a father and cannot wait to see what will be a combination of Amber, myself and God. Jobs..agh! I love teaching, but despise seeing others teaching just because they think it is easy and they like the idea of getting the summer off. Some people I know even got a job secured before they graduated and I thought, "There is no way this person has more heart than me...". I got my position last year, but Amber is still trying to find that first offer. It just seems unfair that she can't land an interview, let alone a position, but God has a plan.
Originally, we were going to start trying when and if Amber was able to get a full-time teaching job, but life has its ways of screwing you when you have it all planned out. We were told that we needed to start trying now or possibly sacrifice ever having a family. I'm sure this is a no-brainer for every person, but we were really torn. Yes it is easy to read this and say "Have a family!",but when it is happening to you, let's just say it's a bit more complicated. We were worried about our financial situation, readiness and a slough of other things.
Clearly, we decided to start trying, but without the promise of a job.
Last week Amber got a call from a principal in the same district with which I teach. The principal set-up a panel interview for Amber on Tuesday (yesterday) and said he would call her the next day (today) whether or not she got the job.
Enter nerves for 24 hours.I awoke early to a well of fear in my belly and basically sat and waited to hear Amber's phone blare that good ol' country tune!
Some time before noon t rings...but it's her mom. WHAT THE HELL! WE'LL CALL YOU WHEN WE FIND OUT! DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW EFFING NERVE WRACKING THIS IS - GOSH! (This is what I was thinking while the mom-in-law asked Amber if she heard anything yet.)
Noon-fifteen: Country music, unknown number and my heart is pounding so hard I can barely breathe. (I don't think I was this nervous for my own call-back.)
SHE GOT IT!!!!!I am so freaking happy!
She'll have a Kindergarten classroom that is an all-day room. It is called a SMART -room because it has a SMART Board, five flat screen new computers, and much more technology that I am hugely jealous of.
I cannot take all the credit for her interview, though. I made good friends with a guy that became a principal in our district and he (I think.) really liked my energy, style and really saw how dedicated I am at teaching. He consistently helped in getting Amber an interview and even was the one that recommended to Amber's now-principal to call her in for an interview. Also, hordes of people had us on their prayer lists and thoughts everyday and I thank all of them. I cannot be happier than I am right now, in this moment - unless Amber gets pregnant next month.
